HOW DO I EXPERIENCE ME?

Arrived on earth the very first day, everything was so new to me I cried like hell. Then I came face to face with the being I was within, whose emotional vibrations I knew too well. “This will be my place of comfort”, I said to myself, “As I explore this whole new world.”

This being, whom I was within, is a She, as I later on learned. She took me to her comfort zone and introduced me to everyone in it. I was scared of these so many beings. A few felt like her and a few felt different. But as long as she was with me, I felt safe to be among these beings.

I eventually extended my comfort zone to include these beings that she introduced me to. I also learned that these other beings that didn’t feel like her are a He. I was also a He. Each of these beings is known by a label and responds every time their label is called. I later on learned that this label is known as name. I had a name too.

By then, I had discarded my primary language (but not totally) and adopted these beings’ language. I began to relate the relational concepts I felt among these beings and started calling them Mother, Father, Brother, Sister, Uncle and Aunty, Family and so on and so forth.

I was introduced to a philosophy of how to live life on this planet earth by my Family. I was cautioned that I must strictly follow this philosophy or else something bad will happen to me and that they will be disappointed in me.

I was so zealous to follow the philosophy told to me that I was so totally, 100% into it all. I participated in their Religion and succeeded in the Education system and learned a lot of things about society and the world and world systems that exists on this planet earth. I was living and experiencing life.

Or was I?

A turning point happened within me. For the first time in my life growing up, I began to question myself and everything I learned. In fact there were a whole lot of questions I began to ask. I didn’t know or understood why I was asking a whole lot of questions. The one question that stood out from the rest was “Who Am I?” Whose life am I living?

My family and society became afraid when I starting asking “Who Am I?” They questioned me “Have you gone mad? Have you forgotten the philosophy we strictly told you to follow and to not question? This comfort zone is where you belong. You are this comfort zone and this comfort zone is you? You will surely not progress further in life and die if you leave this comfort zone?”

I told my family, “It is not you I am going against or questioning. It is me. I am questioning myself. Why are you all reacting when it is not you that I am questioning? Aren’t you your own individual and aren’t you responsible for your thoughts, beliefs, choices, actions and destiny?"

And so, I started a revolution, not from the outside, but from within.

I am starting a new journey to experience me and not society’s’.