Arrived on earth the very first day, everything was so
new to me I cried like hell. Then I came face to face with the being I was
within, whose emotional vibrations I knew too well. “This will be my place of comfort”, I said to myself, “As I explore this whole new world.”
This being, whom I was within, is a She, as I later on learned. She took me to her comfort zone and
introduced me to everyone in it. I was scared of these so many beings. A few felt
like her and a few felt different. But as long as she was with me, I felt safe
to be among these beings.
I eventually extended my comfort zone to include these
beings that she introduced me to. I also learned that these other beings that didn’t
feel like her are a He. I was also a He. Each of these beings is known by a
label and responds every time their label is called. I later on learned that
this label is known as name. I had a
name too.
By then, I had discarded my primary language (but not
totally) and adopted these beings’ language. I began to relate the relational
concepts I felt among these beings and started calling them Mother, Father,
Brother, Sister, Uncle and Aunty, Family and so on and so forth.
I was introduced to a philosophy of how to live life on
this planet earth by my Family. I was cautioned that I must strictly follow this
philosophy or else something bad will happen to me and that they will be
disappointed in me.
I was so zealous to follow the philosophy told to me that
I was so totally, 100% into it all. I participated in their Religion and
succeeded in the Education system and learned a lot of things about society and
the world and world systems that exists on this planet earth. I was living and
experiencing life.
Or was I?
A turning point happened within me. For the first time in
my life growing up, I began to question myself and everything I learned. In
fact there were a whole lot of questions I began to ask. I didn’t know or
understood why I was asking a whole lot of questions. The one question that
stood out from the rest was “Who Am I?”
Whose life am I living?
My family and society became afraid when I starting
asking “Who Am I?” They questioned me
“Have you gone mad? Have you forgotten
the philosophy we strictly told you to follow and to not question? This comfort
zone is where you belong. You are this comfort zone and this comfort zone is
you? You will surely not progress further in life and die if you leave this
comfort zone?”
I told my family, “It
is not you I am going against or questioning. It is me. I am questioning
myself. Why are you all reacting when it is not you that I am questioning? Aren’t
you your own individual and aren’t you responsible for your thoughts, beliefs,
choices, actions and destiny?"
And so, I started a revolution, not from the outside, but
from within.
I am starting a new journey to experience me and not society’s’.